Monsters

I feel so defeated today. You'll think I'm crazy for feeling this way, but my ex, whom I broke up with, has found love, and now I am no longer the one he wants. I tried for five years to make it work... I love him so much it hurts... but it just never did. And last night I kissed him and cried in his arms, and sang to him while he fell asleep and wished I could have him back. Wished I could make it work.

I feel like a monster, and I just want to tear everything, including myself, into pieces.

I know you'll never read this love, because you've moved on, as you should....

I feel so ugly